LOCATION: Ship's Brig, USS Fortitude, somewhere inside the Nos Asteroid Field.
"Your prediction was right. They ambushed and cornered us. That last altercation with our evil universe counterparts has left us limping and trapped. Weapons, engines, shields ... now we're too weak to hold them off and too slow to escape". Captain Stephanes lowered himself slowly to sit at the entrance of the brig cell. After ensuring no guards were in sight, he put his face into his shaking hands as he let out a long, tired sigh through pale and quivering lips. The loneliness of command was an abstract concept taught in the Academy, but now he knew it too well for comfort. He had to remain in charge, keeping everything moving and the ship remaining in one piece. However, the current situation had pushed him to the end of his resources and wits. His crew was similarly strained; but they had him to look up to and trust in. While he had only the blank ceiling to stare at. There was no one he could talk to any longer; his string of failures had left his standing tattered among the crew.
Throughout the years he had been imprisoned, former First Officer Gewissen had seen the captain walk into the brig with all sorts of moods, ranging from the happy to the sad to the angry. This was the first time he was so openly dejected and broken. That he hung out his inner turmoil on his sleeve was a sign he was losing his grip on the collapsing scenario.
"Stephanes, why have you come to tell me this?".
The captain's mouth opened like he was about to say something, but stayed open without any words for awhile. "I don't even know why I came here" was his forlorn response.
"Then let me tell you what I think, Captain". Gewissen took a measured breath to stay collected and calm, hoping that he would frame his words well. Under these circumstances, this might be the last time he could talk with the Captain.
"You are telling me this because you know we are not supposed to be stuck here, trapped in this asteroid field by that Imperial ship. We have been given an important commission by our Fleet Admiral; to travel amongst the stars as a representative of the Alliance; to make first contact with others, to work together with the rest of the fleet; aiding the newer ships and learning from those who've come before us. To take on this commission, the USS Fortitude has been well equipped, our men drawn from the top half of the Academy, and the knowledge and information necessary to carry out our purpose is also readily available. But here we are, being chased around space rocks, with nowhere left to hide".
Seeing no visible response, he went straight for the jugular. He bent down and shouted "CAPTAIN!". Stephanes didn't jump; only turning his head slowly to look at Gewissen. "You know that we don't have to be boxed in by the situation! We may be in dire straits, but it is not the end! We can't fight alone any longer but we don't have to! Get back in contact with the Fleet Admiral, send a mayday for reinforcements, let the rest of the fleet help us!".
Even as he said those oft-repeated words, he saw the familiar hardheadedness creep back into the Captain's eyes, that stubborn look return to his face. Regardless, he had to try if this was his last chance to convince him. "Stephanes, PLEASE, for once, listen to me! You don't want our situation to remain like this, yet you're too scared and risk-averse to make a decision; to do something concrete about it. I think you come here often because you hope that somehow I would "make" you choose what you already KNOW is correct. But I can only remind you ... I can only advise you of the facts. You-are-the-CAPTAIN! The top-ranking commanding officer and decision maker on this ship! Just hearing and agreeing with the truth isn't enough, you must make your choice and act on it ".
A minute or two ticked by as former First Officer Gewissen anxiously waited for his reply, hoping that he'll do something different from all the previous times.
"I have made my choice. I will never allow this ship to be captured and be used by the Imperials against other Alliance ships. With nowhere to run, insufficient guns left, so ...". The captain left his sentence half-finished.
Gewissen looked out his cell's window port to hide the eyes dripping with disappointment as he completed the sentence, "So you'll go down with guns blazing, taking them down with you if possible, to die the honorable death of a soldier". A single nod of the captain's head affirmed the accuracy of his words. And caused him to laugh mockingly, laughter that painfully echoed off the narrow walls of the brig.
"I pity you, Captain. This is no dead end but one of your own creation. You've been on your own and on the run for so long that you are too dead set in your old ways to change direction now. This is not bravery but cowardliness hiding behind the veneer of bravado. A pointless waste of good men and a good ship"
Seeing that he would only get a new series of biting criticisms, Captain Stephanes got up without another word and walked away. As he exited the brig, Gewissen shouted one last line of words. "Go back to your bridge Captain; knowing that this is not how it should end, but you just wouldn't choose against the flow of life's river"
(TO BE CONTINUED)
COPYRIGHT of MICHAEL LIM (24.7.2009)
p.s. acknowledgment of ideas gleaned from the Star Trek series of books. Characters and ships are not related in anyway, intentional or unintentional, to those inside the official Trek Universe.